I can feel it creeping up on me. I’ve been around veterans and military so much the past three years that I’m gaining situational awareness in more than just my physical surroundings; it’s making its way to my heart. Of course, that’s not a new thing, is it? King David wrote in Psalm 139, verses 23-24, “Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” Wow, is it frightening to pray those words! I know God sees the cynicism I try to hide. Don’t you see it? The symptoms (cues) are obvious:
Contributing factors: Knowledge, and experience.
David’s son, Solomon, the wisest, most knowledgeable man of his time, wrote Ecclesiates 1:18 when he was king of Jerusalem. “For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.” Not the kind of thing you want to read when you’re praying for wisdom; not the motivation you need to keep going. I’ve read this verse several times before and acknowledged that the more you know- especially when you really care- the more it hurts. The vulnerability is what I signed up for when I began working for the wounded and became a voice for veterans. So, why this despair when I read these words, and why do cock my eyebrow and shake my head less than a year into our Tracks4Vets mission?
Cynicism: Effective assassin of hope.
Why am I so cynical? Funny you should ask. Same reasons you are:
Tracks4Vets, or any organization, will only make a difference when I continue to give with all my heart; when I have God’s loving compassion that overcomes indifference or skepticism and is generous with the time, attention, and resources He has given me.
Will you join me in combating cynicism with Christ’s compassion? What spurs compassion in your heart and how can you put that into practice?